yes we're still waiting

Its been awhile since I've posted so just wanted to write a quick update. There haven't been any referrals in like 8 weeks? Crazy but I know the courts are closed and this is kind of "vacation time" in Ethiopia. So, nothing to report. I continue to wait on the Lord and trust his timing-some days I do a better job than others:) We are staying super busy though this summer-every weekend seems a bit crazy. Last weekend Sean and I were both home so we decided to hike up to camp Mier (sp?), which is base camp on Mount Rainier. Next week Sean is planning to hike up to the top so we went to 10,000 feet (the top is 14,0000)...oh my goodness I have never been so tired! Definitely the hardest hike I've ever done-All day hike up, then we slid on the snow almost the whole way down on our behinds! When we were closer to the bottom, we kept noticing the kids-how far do parents push them...when will we be able to bring our kids to do a bit of hiking?
This weekend is my friend Natalie's wedding:) I am a bridesmaid and quite excited. On Saturday after the wedding my mom, Sean and I leave for Bend Oregon (6 hour drive) to join a family reunion there...We have people staying at our house either for the reunion or the Mt. Rainier hike for the next 10 days...busy busy...but thank goodness as it keeps my mind occupied during this grueling wait!
I can't wait to report who are dear children will be-I keep hoping it will be my next post but there are no guarantees in this adoption process!!!

Thank you for all your prayers~
Rachel

A better day!

Our CHI friends who have been waiting for siblings since December got their referral TODAY!!! YEAH This gives us much hope that our request is possible. We are so happy for them. Visit their blog at http://lisaandshawnsethiopianjourney.blogspot.com/

There were 4 other referrals of babies as well! I keep singing the childrens song
"my God is so BIG so strong and so MIGHTY there's nothing my God can not do".... its stuck in my head today....

a little dissapointing

So the good news is that there were two sibling referrals in the past week, the bad news for us is that neither of them went to people who had waited longer than us, so our name is not closer to the top:( I guess we and several other families are requesting two young children or at least asking for siblings where one of them is under 12 months of age...so the wait continues and I am trying hard to stay busy. I am constantly reminded that this process of adoption is unique. I can't plan, like my friends who have had kids naturally, for 9 m0nths. I can hope tentatively for a time line but it could still be months till we get a referral and that is a gloomy thought when you've wanted a baby for so long. So how do I not get discouraged? I go through stages of staying busy, of trying to enjoy these "last months" of being married without children, of working on projects or growing my practice or knowledge in my career field...but I feel like I've been trying to do these same things for such a long time...first when we were trying (2003-2007) to get pregnant and now I can't help but feel some of those feelings of hope deferred again...I'm almost scared to hope too much because I'm afraid of being disappointed again. Soloman was right, hope deferred makes the heart sick. Sometimes just feel like alright, enough waiting, I'm ready to get this mom stage started...So the struggle continues-indulgence of thoughts focused on myself.
Hope deferred makes the heart sick but desire fulfilled is the tree of life. Proverbs 13:12

I am much better off being thankful, focused on the enormous blessings of all God has given me-those areas that I have hoped for and received in abundance! To name a few; a wonderful husband, friends and family who love me, my own practice, and now the amazing miracle of going through the adoption process with the hopes of becoming a mom to two kids who are born in ETHIOPIA! Who would have thought???And only in this time in history is something like this possible. Only with my husband's incredible faith, believing that this could all come together back when we decided over a year ago to start this process have we moved forward. And only through God's provision that we have been able to save the money we have to afford a step like this. It is a very unique and special privilege to be here to be waiting for my dear babies to be at a place in their lives that I can step in and be their Mom and Sean can be their Dad. I SO want to see my sweet husband with these kids. He will be such a good Dad. I get sad and impatient because I am so excited. I am excited about the dumbest things, bath times and taking walks and playing at the beach and making meals and teaching them. I think about it all the time, how my life will be different once they come..my visions are probably still a little romantic, unrealistic but maybe that is okay, part of the process that brings you to be a parent. I know there will be hard times once they come too but I think am learning that having children is not a right but a gift, not a stage of life but privlege for a short time. No child is mine to possess but God's whom I am gifted to raise on His time, not mine. I'm praying for you sweet babies! I hope you sleep well tonight.


Isaiah 40 says that those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength! His ways are higher and better than mine! What peace this brings:)

Yeah today was a sibling referral! I hope it was someone ahead of us...I'm thinking it was which puts our name a little closer to the top. There seem to be a lot of referrals for individual kids but few for siblings and I know we are asking for two very little ones so I find myself asking "will this really happen" or "should we change our referral request"??? We think and pray about this but right now we still feel like our request is possible so we must just continue to be patient...so I will keep praying for them and wondering where they are and what they are doing and who is caring for them. There are some really beautiful blogs out there of families who have gone before us and it is encouraging to look back in their blog history and see that they also had to go through a long wait time. I will put them on my blog so you can see them if you would like to. It is easy to get discouraged and think, "will this ever happen", "will I ever get to be a mom?" but I have to trust that it will happen at the right time. Maybe the babies God wants for us aren't ready to be adopted, but I think about them every day and I hope every week that more sibling referrals will come in and that maybe someday soon we will get that call...

Why siblings? For us we know that we want more than one kid and going through this adoption process is SO long that it seems logical to get two kids at the same time. I also really like the idea of our kids having a biological connection in this world, and a sibling to grow up with. My fears are that I will have less individual focused time with each kid but for the most part I have peace about this and will just have to roll with the punches life brings. When I picture our kids I never picture one but two, I may be crazy for wanting them to come at the same time but this is always what both Sean and I have felt from the beginning, that there are two babies who will be ours.

Anyway I thought I would share some of my thoughts. Sean is in the Philippines this week. Another new country-he's up to thirty something, getting close to 40 countries now that he's visited! I am already starting to think about adopting another baby from Asia after we get these two! I better see how I adjust to being a mom first!

Sean and I just returned from India. It was a great whirl wind trip-Long plane rides but a great week in a very different place. We had several days to relax, enjoy the beach and the tourist sites near Chennai and one day of visiting work that World Vision is doing with AIDS victims, at an orphanage and at a site that works with woman who have the horrible disease. We were able to talk with them and hear their stories, wow. It reminded me of my humble place in this adoption process. When I get impatient that we have not gotten a referral yet, I need to remember the families that are having to give up their kids due to insurmountable circumstances. They may be experiencing their last days with their children before having to give them up forever. In any case God is teaching me that his ways are higher than mine and I must trust this process that is in his hands.
I am now back here in Bonney Lake, Sean is getting ready for his next trip and recovering from a nasty flu he had over the weekend. I have reopened my practice as the wait for siblings is currently quite long and our possible move to India has been canceled. Interestingly I really liked India and I wouldn't have minded staying a little longer:)

there have been a lot of referrals lately....

our name must be getting closer to the top:) Although I know we are asking for very young siblings, a difficult referral so I am trying to prepare myself for more weeks, or at least days of waiting. I can't help but think about my 30th birthday coming up and how nice it would be to have a referral around then. I am shutting down my practice now and preparing to be a full time mommy, at least for awhile. Sean is spending much time in India and it looks like I will likely go and spend time with him there if we don't get a referral first:) So many things up in the air, an exciting time...my friend said the other day it sounds like you are starting the roller coaster ride about now...and it feels like it. It is hard to terminate with my clients...it is hard to shut down my practice for a life that is so unknown to me right now, but I couldn't be more excited at the thought of being a mom to these precious little ones in Ethiopia. Those are my random thoughts for the day...sorry I'm not posting more, I will plan to once the referral comes in!

Still waiting....

I believe there were eight referrals last week so that brings our name further up on the list. We hope to have information soon, but as I said in my last post this is the waiting period...my friend who recently brought her baby home said, the most like pregnancy, but for me it is a strange time as we aren't doing a lot to prepare. There was a lot to do when we were gathering paperwork and getting basic baby stuff but at this point we are waiting until we know who the kids are before we move forward any further. I am trying to enjoy this time with Sean, I know it will be a transition to double our family and we really enjoy our lives right now...we both love our jobs and are so happy in our home in Bonney Lake.
It was fun last weekend to be with my two new nephews Caden and Dane:) It was good baby practice and SO fun for me~!
I'll write more when I hear anything!
Blessings,
Rachel
Our God is Good. His plans and timing are best. We wait with excitement and joy trusting our family in His hands!